I've begun to notice that everything good is a result of a slow process. The eternity it takes to finally make that first kiss - what a good thing, and a slow process. Taking five years to get a college degree (ok, four, for you geniuses) is a good thing, slow process. Taking four months to finally lose ten pounds (for good) - once again, good thing, slow process. I think I've become used to everything happening in an instant: fast cash, fast food, fast entertainment with the click of a button, studying last minute, expecting instant results as quickly as my minute rice cooks in the microwave. And even though I know everything good is usually a slow process, I get offended when things don't instantly happen. I realize the fault of this most often with God. Isn't he listening? Hasn't he heard me pray without ceasing? Doesn't he know the desires of my heart? Won't he just make things happen the way I want them to because he loves me?
It took me a long time (hey, another slow process) to understand that God's time isn't my time, and usually God's time is a long time. This process I've been working out with him, this slow, rich, beautiful and mysterious relationship is a good, good thing. And I know that God is a good king. Which took me a while to realize... so if I undoubtedly trust that God is good, then I must know that the slow processes I am in now are going to be really good. It's like God wants me to realize that patience is a part of his love, and I'm going to have to really know that. If we got everything we wanted in a flash, where would we develop trust, dependence, and love?
So, I'm trusting him - that he's good, that he's strong, and that he loves me. I know that patience, which is so out of style right now, is a big part of what his kingdom looks like. I'm thankful to be a part of that... and I know I won't be disappointed.
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