Wednesday, December 10, 2008

you are mine

On the fifteenth day of Christmas, my true love said to me, "you are mine."

For a long time after becoming a Christian, I still could not accept the fact that God loved me. I was sinful in a lot of ways, and I did and said a lot of stupid things that aren't pleasing to God. My freshman year of college, I read a book called "The Ragamuffin Gospel" by Brennan Manning. Two chapters into it, I was on the floor sobbing. At the time, I was unhappy, broken and hurting. Because of who I was, I didn't think God accepted me. And reading this book, it hit me: God loves me and accepts me because I am his. Nothing I do will ever make him stop loving me. God's love for me isn't based on my performance, it isn't based on how others see me or even how I see myself - he loves me deeply and purely because I am his. 

This epiphany transformed my relationship with God. It brought it on a deeper, more personal level. And even though Satan still tries to convince me every now and then that I need to work to earn God's love, I can sit and rest in the beautiful fact that I am God's, and nothing, nothing, will ever take me away from him.

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